Hello,

I need some help or reassurance here. I have gone through litteral H** the last two years with medications and trying to get my anxiety and major depression under control. I have tried celexa, lexapro, Effexor, Zoloft, luvox, abilify, seroquel and now we are at paxil. I have also been in the hospital 3 months ago where I had 7 ECT treatments which left me confused and had no short term memory so I stopped them. Prior to taking 20mg of paxil I was severly depressed with intense suicidal ideation...I was pacing and crying and just wanted to die. I must say that after 2 weeks on the paxil 20mg the pacing stopped and so did the crying. However, I believe the depression is still and issue. So my doctor increased me to 30mg and I have been on it for 2 weeks.....I am sooooooooo tired. I have never known what it felt like to be just depressed without horrific anxiety but that is how I feel. I'm not worrying so much and haven't had an anxiety attack for about a week...but I have absolutly no motivation, energy, hopefullness or interest in anything. My sister is on Paxil CR and it has worked for her, however she has never gotten nearly depressed and anxious as I have. I have lost 2 jobs because I have been a mess and that doesn't help my self esteem I literally have no self esteem at this point. It has been the worst 2 years of my life and I am so scared that this Paxil is not going to work. All together I have been on paxil 4 weeks and all I want to do is lay around and sleep. Granted it is much better than the intense anxiety and suicidal thoughts but I want to wake up with motivation and get back to work but right now I can't which is increadibly frustrating. Please offer some advice. I'd really appreciate it!

Thanks for listening.

Heather