Hi
I have read several posts and i am so glad i can relate to others. I am in my senior year of high school. I have always had a hard time with school and school work. I had to switch schools two years ago and go to a private school because i needed a new start. Ive been seing psychiatrists my whole life. But last year (my junior year) I was correctly diagnosed with major depressive disorder-sever-reccurant, Generalized anxiety disorder, and ADHD. I am taking Lexapro, Lamictal, and Ativan. I still worry about everything, and find myself having anxiety in school and running to school nurse because crying because it all seems like there is just to much to handle. My junior year i was hospitalized because i wanted to **** myself, and i wasnt afraid to say it. I just wanted out of this life. I couldnt stand it here.

One of my friends told my parents. I was in the psyc. hospital for 3 days. then 3 months later i overdosed and started harming myself. friends noticed the marks and told my school. My school threatened to kick me out. (they didnt though) because i was better because of the medication after that. However, now i am having ANOTHER bout of depression. And im stressed because my school makes a huge deal that i want to go to a community college...they want all of the students to go to a university. I cant handle living with a roomate or that work ethic. I am still having depressive episodes and anxiety attacks. And the whole application process on top of school is too much for me. I am going to a community college while im living at home, with my parents, and I have my psychiatrist close by so I dont have to find a new one.

*What should I do to handle school better, and if this meds arent working what should i do..i see my psy. doctor on thursday...and whats your opinion on the community college?

Hi and Welcome to DF Dreamland

I really think that it is awful that your school wanted to kick you out for self harming.
They should realize that you need all the help and support you need, not add more anxiety and problems.
I am glad that you are going to your pdoc. Please tell them everything, as they may adjust your meds.
Also about community college, that is a decision that you have to make, if you feel more comfortable with it and will be less triggered by it, then perhaps its the right thing to do.

Trace

Mornin' Dreamland!

How are your parents handling this? I hope they are loving and supportive; sometimes our friends and family just want us to 'snap out of it' until they finally get that it's a neurological disorder. My dad still tells me once in awhile to 'change my routine' or 'just get stronger meds'!

Anyway, welcome to our club Come here anytime, as often as you like. It's a great place for support.

-Deet

Hi Dreamland!

I think you need to take a look at your life and what you feel would be best for you. Going to a big university can be very competitive and stressful, I completely understand your decision to go to community college. You can always switch if you feel stronger and more able to cope with university life, but for the time being you need to do what's best for you at this moment in time.

Do you feel comfortable speaking openly and honestly to your family? Are they supportive of your decision to stay at home?

You're the person feeling like this, experiencing these events, you know what has triggered you in the past. I wouldn't allow anyone to put pressure on me or bring stress into my life if I were you. Could you ask your pdoc to write a letter to give to the school explaining your needs and condition, stressing the importance of their support? You could ask a supportive adult to accompany you for a meeting with the principal, and the 3 of you could work out ways to provide you with a less stressful enviroment. Just an idea :)

The important thing is that you and your family ensure that your needs are being met. There are ways to manage your condition, don't let anyone make you feel like crap, and ask for help from the pdoc and the people you trust in your life. And keep us updated!

Thanks for you help,
my parents dont go to any of my pdoc appts. they yell at me and blame everything on me being "lazy" and out of shape. I have bad physical symptoms from my anxiety and depression. I get abdominal pain, joint pain, heart pain, and major fatique. they dont get it. A week ago i went to the clinic crying in pain and out of stress. my guidance counselors talked to my teachers, which has helped. but i put so much effort into school and still do bad. my parents are practically uninvoled with my mental life. and even the school nurse called my parents about me being overwhelmed with school....and get this.....my mom later called the school and asked them to have me call her...my mom YELLED at me for being a baby.

so im kind of at a loss.

((((((((((Dreamland)))))))))))

I am so sorry that your parents do not understand. So many people who have not suffered from depression just do not understand.
Have you tried to print them out some info on depression and hand it to them. Perhaps they may start to realize that it is a real illness and not something that you are making up.

Trace

Dreamland, I'm awful sorry. But I know you'll get better. You're doing the right thing by reaching out to people who DO understand the pain. People who help themselves and TRY to get help are the ones who get better.

-Deet