Hello here I am new to the forums but not new to the illness. I am now my first break was at the age of 14. Mania ,hallucinations, paranoi, depression, anxiety etc... I got multiple diagnoseses over my many hospitalizations such as bi-polar, schitso affective ,schitsofranic . This went on for about 5 or 6 years going to the inpatient, day treatments and involved in dmh. meds I was on included zyprexa, neurontin, lexipro, remeron, adavan, depakote, risperdol and probally more but I cant remember. Then one day all my symptoms all seemed to go away voices , paranoia etc.. After lots of therapy I was able to successfully ween off my meds. now fast forward to now about a year ago the anxiety started returning hearing voices again occasionaly not command though, sleep getting less and less and ever presance of depression lurking. I was working for the past few years but couldnt hold a job longer then 6 months even though i felt good something was always off. im seeing a psyc again for the past 7 moths and never stopped counciling. I got put on 40 mg of celexa and also ambien for sleep which didn't help at all. I had to cut down my work hours and put college on hold. I feel helpless got a wife that cares but doesnt fully understand. I just applied for ssdi the desicion came in but got sent to quality control what ever that is adding more stress. I got off ssi when i was 19 to work hopefully i can get back on without a problem i got on it first try when i was younger. i am hoping my symtoms dont progress to how they used to be but its slowly been getting worse.

Hi Welcome to DF and the bipolar room StaticVision

I'm sorry that you are spiralling right now. Bipolar is a lifelong fight, with constant doctor monitoring and mediaction changes. It is good that you have found us and I am glad that you are doing what is needed to help you right now. Its great that you recognize the spiral too.
I'm glad that you have a wife that cares, but it is very hard for someone to understand that does not suffer from the disorders that you do. Thats what we are here for. Join in the New Friends Thread too and I hope that you lift from your immpending depression soon.

Trace

Being in remission for any length of time is what we all hope for. How long was yours?

It's good you realized your issues were starting again and you sought professional help right away. Good job! Do you think all the stress could have retriggered your BP? Stress really affects mine.

Not sure what you meant about "quality control" from SSDI. Are they requesting you see one of their pdocs for assessment? You can always call SS for the status of your claim or ask questions about letters they send you.
Sheepwoman

I was doing fairly well over the past 6 years or so on no heavy meds, I felt so free now I feel like im getting boxed in, went to my psych apt yesterday got my celexa upped to 60 mg and my ambien upped to 10 mg he told me to keep trying the ambien since 5 mg is a low dose. I definitly think all the stress factors in my life triggerd this. As for the ssd quality control my worker called me and said my case came back from the medical examiner but it got picked up for review. They told me every so many cases get randomly picked for review to make sure the me are doing there job. She couldnt tell me my decision even though they got it because it was picked for review. She did tell me though that my case was at the me for a short time so that usually meant a favorable decision(basicly telling me I got appooved) now im just waiting for them to be done with the review which has me so stressed. I have a long paper trail of my doctors and hospitals plus I was on ssi before when i was younger. anyone else ever have the quality control thing?

My sleep has been absolutley horrible latley maybe 2 or 3 hours a night its terrible.