Considering I am now fully operational and have been working full-time for a few months now after a very rough time with depression and anxiety, I have decided to ask myself questions on how my life needs to be in the future.

Knowing the nature of depression, I have a diary which I keep updated on a 2 hour basis which notes my good times and bad. I am continually looking back on the last good day when I feel bad, and would like to find out from the people who feel they are "medicated", about how they want to improve their lives further. For example, wishing the medication would work more on anxiety as well as depression, or any side-effects, tiredness or it could be something like wishing you could sleep better.

I am trying to think on what I can do to improve my life and make every day as good as possible, and am wondering what other people feel about their life at the current minute. Are you happy? Could you be happier? Are you still feeling underwhelmed and want more out of life? How do you intend to do this?

This poll would help a lot, thanks.

This post has been edited by kirkwuk: Jul 15 2008, 05:00 PM

I voted quite happy because I'm doing pretty good at the moment. Meds are working, bills are getting paid, I'm healthy and my family is healthy, it's summer.........things are just good. IMO, the worst thing you can do is have too much downtime. I personally need things to look forward to. When I'm laying around is when I feel the worst. I always try to plan my weekend beforehand so I have something to do. Wether its working out, planning something with my friends, going to the movies, cleaning the house, wash and wax the car... I always make sure I have something to do. It's cliche to hear "get a hobby" but its true. Find something you love or always wanted to try and pursue it. I dont know how close you are to your family but I am close to mine and gather alot of strength from them. Just hearing my dads voice on the phone instantly makes me feel better. I'm 32 years old and he still gives me that sense of comfort that kids get from their parents.

I am quite happy! The past 8 months have been the best of my life.
Doug

Right now I'm not that happy with my life, despite I got a wonderful husband and 4 pets that love me to death. I'm sick of my life and having no money. I would love to lose weight and be out of debt.

What interesting results! I had to admit I thought most people would vote "unhappy" but was pleased to find this isn't the case. I said "quite happy", but I think I'm somewhere between "quite happy" and "okay". I think I'm afraid of things being good? I'm always waiting for something bad to happen when things have been cruisey for a while. Kind of silly really!
I think my main problem is the way I feel about myself. Things are really going well, but I always seem to bring myself down, because I feel that I am not good enough for this world. I'm going to have a good chat to my doctor about it tomorrow, hopefully we can get to the bottom of it all.

Hope that helps.

I voted ok but would like to change somethings.
Mainly because my relationship with my partner is up and down, alot of stress from various areas of my life right now. Just lots of little things really, and they all seem to pile into one big mess!!!!

Dear living withBPD
I sooooooo understand where your coming from! I don't have BPD, but depresion for almost 25 yrs. I have a great husband, who does his best, but I don't think he understands me and I think sometimes he's tired of my episodes. I know I get disgusted so I would think he does too! I have two great kids. I also have 2 dogs. I'm also tired of my life, and having no money!! I've always struggled with my weight my whole life, but most the time I'm able to say...get your act together and I start to lose weight. In the last few months I've put alot of weight on and I don't know if my medication is adding the additional weight or am I not eating correctly etc.
I take Cynbalta 60mg and Lamictin 200mg. Maybe someone out there knows something about these medication and weight gain?

Anyway livingwithBPD just know that I can feel what your going through and write to me anytime.
MALACH

I voted "No or little happiness" for various reasons, many of them situational. Sometimes I wish I was someone else.....

I voted rotten. I am overwhelmed with bills and am now looking for a second job. School is around the corner which just means school clothes, supplies, etc. I dont have the energy to do anything anymore, no matter how much I plan them out. My every intention that day could be to go to the bookstoerk, to the gym, pool, etc. after workAnd I end up coming home and getting into bed. I cant sleep and the sleep medication my doc gave me had some sort of reverse affect and I was wide awake at 1am. And I feel a little sick..but at least I have not cried today. UGH,that sounds pathetic.

I will vote NOT OK. I am dealing with a lot of stress in my business because of a lot of issues with a business affiliate. He is slow to pay and I am not financially happy. I have an interview tomorrow and I pray to God that it goes well so I can start to look up again. I just despise working for this other guy right now but I am a little stuck so hopefully things will change for the better soon. I am still a little depressed and moody, not satisfied with my life in general. I want to join martial arts training but the cash flow is not good right now for the reasons stated above. My self esteem is low because of my financial situation. Again I am praying that the Lord will get me through this soon. I know I deserve better than what I have been through.

Not rotten, things could be alot worse I suppose, but they do just seem to be getting worse and worse, makes you wonder how low can you go. Hopefully will stay out of the rotten zone. Life used to be pretty good, I never in my wildest nightmares could I have imagined where I have ended up now. Sometimes I literally feel like I have died and gone to my own personal hell, like everything that could have gone wrong in my life, or everything I was scared of happening has done. Almost complete 360 from my old life, and I desperately want it back. Hate my life and pretty much everything about it at the moment. Hate feeling trapped in it too, like nothing I do will change it, or that I cant change it. The thought terrifies me.

My life right now is okay, but i am afraid of the future. I fear i will never be in a relationship, because i happen to be ugly and depressive.

edit: no, not really ugly, but definetly not handsom. I think i look okay.

This post has been edited by Christopher: Jul 28 2008, 02:35 PM

I voted below average because right now I am jobless, have absolutely no money, my boyfriend is taking care of everything which makes me feel even worse and worried about our future, and I am in a lot of debt. I lost my job a couple of months ago thanks to my anxiety issues and I just haven't been up to working. I'm REALLY hoping that everything changes for the better soon!!

Below average because thats how I feel !!!!!

p.s. Not surprised that on a depression group no-ones put Perfectly Happy !!!!

My life could always be better. I could have a better job, a better place to live, more time with my family. But I take it a day at a time.

Dante~