Hello all.

I don't know what to do anymore. I can't seem to cope at all. its to the point where I'm crying about things that I love but know I can't have. out of 130 songs I don't feel for anyone of them. and nor that my only friend is the only one I trust. its taking over my life, and what is more, I want it to stay this way. I now nearly have no control of my emotion. I love the things that I can't have, and have the things that I avoid. I'm finding it very very hard to maintain my social state and to make it worse I have Aspergous Syndrome that mucks up my life.

I don't at all feel mad or angry, but I feel as if I'm just going to break out and go on some sort of rampage. I'm finding it difficult to type because all I see is words, no meaning, no feeling, no life, nothing. the main source of my depression I guess is the fact that I'm only 13 and I'm Bi, want to be a fursuiter, and wants to cross-dress. life is no meaning without ambitions, ambitions are no meaning if they're not achievable.

-edit- if anyone knows any touching type songs, please say. thanks!

This post has been edited by TorrenWolf: Jun 19 2008, 07:19 AM

Hi and Welcome to DF TorrenWolf

You are still very young and have so much on your plate.
I believe that if you believe, anything is possible, anything is atainable.
From the sounds of it, it seems as if your emotions have become numb.
I would recommend that you see a doc or therapist or both, it really can help.

Trace

Thanks for replying. I have recently checked with a psychiatrist and unfortunately no luck for me and him. and I'm not so looking forward to checking with a doctor because I'm not the kind of person who enjoys taking anti-depressants every morning and night. but thank you anyway.

Michael

TorrenWolf

Have you got anyone close that you can talk to about how your feeling? Could you talk to a school counsellor?

I dont know if you have this where you are by we have like a kids helpline here and you can talk to them without saying who you are or where your from. I have heard that has helped some kids around your age.

Does it upset you that you cant be the person you want to be? That you have to hide who you are?

Isabeau

Hello and thanks for posting. there is a school counsellor but I've had no luck talking with him. and It does upset me that I can't be who I want to be. I've been looking forward to something in particular ever since I could spell the word and 6 years gone by, its quite a bother. nor that I have been hiding my real self for such a long time that I occasionally go mad and start screaming and such, but I guess thats kinda normal. Thanks for posting

Michael