HI,

i have been off work and so depressed that even after 10 mths I struggle to get out of bed. I have all the classic symptoms to the full extent. i have not found any relief from the meds that i have tried. I was last depressed 5 yyrs ago and put on Effexor. I was on 600mgs and then it did not seem to be helping and my depression came back 10 mths ago worse than ever. i have tried celexa,wellbutrin, and afew others and nothing has helped. i have started cymbalta 5wks ago 60mg) and again no relief. i am afraid that i will not get better since this has never taken so long with so many meds not working. I feel that iam in the middle of a huriicane and everthing around me is being destroyed. (relationships,finances etc etc).

For the 1st time ever suicide has crossed my path since I can not continue to live like this forever!!!

You didn't say if you have a Dr. Have you been in touch with them?

HI Heather,

I see my doctor weekly and have done so for 10 mths. He has given me Ativan when things get too hard. But that is no way to live. I have missed out so much already and had some important plans for the summer as well.

I have great friends na family but they are frustrated as well. My doctor says that I have to believe that i will get better. Yet the really is. that I am not and fear like so others that I will not.

Even if I get better, it bothers me that getting married and having children may not happen. Who would want to have others suffer because of their illness or more importantly which women would take that risk with me????

sklach

Sorry to hear that you haven't been receiving any relief from the medicatiions you have been trying. I understand how this feels as I've been on a similar journey, trying many different ADs with little or no effect. This started around 2 and a half years ago for me. In the middle of last year I actually found one that worked for me but I had to go off it as the side effects were too bad. It's only recently that I have found a combination of two ADs that bring some relief but even then, it's taken quite awhile for them to "kick in".

I know it's difficult when your feeling so depressed that you can't get out of bed, but I find exercise helps to lift my mood. Even if you can only manage a few minutes walking then that's something to be proud of!

I suffer from Panic Disorder, with meds I have it mostly controled. I am married and have kids. Hubby does his best and we have been honest with the kids, so it's possible. Maybe it's time to try and use an SSRI or other med besides Ativan. Something to regulate, talk to your Dr. See what he thinks about one of the meds available. Please keep me posted.

Maybe a higher dose of Cymbalta would help. Some people need 90 or 120 mg. for it to be effective. I also agree that maybe just an SSRI like Zoloft or Paxil may give you relief instead of an SSNI like Cymbalta. Let us know how it goes. I think most of understand the frustration of "trial and error".