i wasnt sure on which forum to post under, forgive me. but im looking for anwsers.. looking for someone that can tell me if they are or have been in the same boat. it all began in mid january when my prescription for accutane expired. i was so pi**ed off. so, i decided to take some leftovers that i had from the previous round of accutane id done before. i didnt want to wait a month to get in the office and start AC. so i said forget it. im gonna start it myself. the last time i started off with 10 MG, because im a very small girl, barely 92 pounds standing 5'2 tall. this time, i started taking 40 MG daily. after two weeks, i realized that something was wrong. TERRIBLY wrong. i have a history of depression in my family, and my doctor put me on lexapro and it worked, but then i just stopped. so anyways, i continued with the 40 MG dosage for about a month and got slammed with the most horrible side effects. my mind was racing at 90 miles an hour. I FELT LIKE I WAS GOING INSANE.. i could not stop my leg from moving at 90 miles a second when i was sitting. i was feeling jittery to the extreme.. it kept getting worse and worse. then, i started getting panick attacks. i couldnt breathe, i was suffocating, i felt like i was dying oh my god it was and still is the most worst thing a human could ever experience. another night, i came home, and fell onto the floor of my room. i had to crawl to the bathroom to get in there. i was so dizzy. i couldnt keep objects straight. the walls in my bedroom were moving and so was my bed. i felt like i was high. it was terrifying. i couldnt move. then, the next day, at my boyfriends house, i suddenly got really angry and pi**ed, and then i started to cry, then i started hyperventilating and crying untill i couldnt barely breathe. for no. reason. whatsoever. my legs were jello. i couldnt feel them at all. but then they started to tingle. i didnt understand. i was rushed to the ER and was placed in a pysch ward for a few days. my pyschiatrist took me off lexapro and switched me to luvox, and i was discharged. after a week or so, i was feeling slightly better. two weeks past, i was still ok. but not completely. the anxiety was still there. that anxiety fills my body 247. i couldnt stop thinking or worrying about anything. i decided to sneak in some more accutane into my life once more and took about 5 more while still on the luvox. then, just a week after i stopped accutane again, im going crazy. im going completely insane. im so confused. i dont know what anything is. i have horrible shaking in my hands and extreme paranoia. like, if someone abruptly opens a door i jump like ten feet and freak out. everything scares me. i cant calm down. my mind thinkslikethiscantstopthinkingomgomgomgwhatshappeningicantstopthinkingthisiscraz
yimmadimmad < that is my head and it wont stop. i cant think of one subject at a time. i was never like this before. i started to have whole body tremors and my doctor gave me geodon and gave me tripeptal or something like that? for bipolar (i forgot to mention i developed horrible bipolar somewhere in the mix of this) and i woke up the next morning shaking i had to hold onto a teddy bear because i was shaking so much. i felt like i was dying. i was not able to breathe whatsoever i wanted to scream SOMEONE HELP ME I FEEL LIKE IM DYING i just couldnt control it! my doc just gave me valium and said to use it when the panick attacks come on. i dont ****ing know what to do anymore. i am NOT myself im still shaking my hands are going at like 188888888888888888 miles a second right now and its driving me completely insane. i cannot sleep for ANYTHING. my head wont let me. the racing thoughts and the fear and the anxiety have taken over me. i cant concentrate. tried to read a book and i freaked out and threw it on the ground. i tried singing lyrics to a song and i started crying AND IT WASNT A ******* SAD SONG) please help me does anyone have any suggestions for meds that i should try? every single moment of the day and of the night, im trembling slightly, terrified that ill never be myself again. then the next second, i have a panick attack. then the next second im so depressed and anxious. i dont know what to do.. i need help!!!

I´m really, really sorry you are suffering like this.

just my 2 cents- it seems that this is not anxiety but you´re manic. or maybe it´s mixed episode, because your thoughts are definitely negative... I suggest you search for Dr. Phelps site for bipolar, and explore this, there is also info about medication.

I would think that maybe AP like seroquel could bring you down - but I´m not a doctor.

what you have to do is get in touch with your pdoc immediately, and let him think of what meds to take.

hugs,
soleil

i dont know whats happening to me. today, i was laying in bed and trying to listen to my ipod, and all of a sudden fear struck me for no reason and i started to panick. i couldnt lay still in my bed. at all. i had to stop listening to music. this happens with almost EVERYTHING i do. at anytime during the day. it wont stop. what do you think about this?