Hey,

My mom committed suicide 7 years ago when I was 22. After that I was part of wonderful suicide survivors support group, I think it was named SCOLOS. the domain name was something with 1000 deaths (the meaning is that the one who commits suicide dies once, but the survivors die 1000 times).

I'm moving forward with my healing, and as the meds have been abling me to get in touch with my feelings more - and there is a lot of hurt because of my mom's death. I realize I have to start over with the grieving process and acknowledge to myself the hurt that I'm feeling - and that I have supressed.

but the sad thing is that this support group is closed down, for some time now. I haven't been able to find it from some other address as well. If anybody knows anything about this support group, I would be thankful to get this information. also, if anybody know any other good support group for suicide survivors, it would be useful for me.

thanks,
soleil

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(((((yoursoleil))))),

I'm so sorry to hear about your mother's suicide, and your support group closing. I hope you find another good one, and that DF is helping. I'm glad to hear that your meds are working, and you're moving forward with your healing.

What you said about 1,000 deaths is very powerful, and chilling. That's something to ponder whenever we feel suicidal.

thanks, Burgy

it is so true about 1000 deaths.. it´s been 7 years, and I now understand that I´m still so totally lost without my mom and my world has been shattered in pieces, and I haven´t been able to glue it together :( it makes me wonder will I ever be able? it still hurts so much, and I miss her like crazy.

hugs,
soleil

Hi yoursoleil,

I'm really sorry to hear about your mothers death

I had a look around, and there is a group called SCOLOS in Yahoo groups -- I found the link through a myspace page about suicide. It says that it is an electronic support group for adults who lost a parent or parents to suicide. I'm not sure if it is the same one as the group you talked about, but it could be worth searching Yahoo Groups.

It's quite easy to find once you are on the Yahoo page, but if you would like the link, I can PM you.

Take care, Florry

Hi Florry!

thanks a lot

but actually I´ve found the same thing and tried to join twice.. somehow it didn´t work. I´m trying again.

it´s mysterical, because it was a big forum, with much traffic, just like this one here. how a thing like this can dissapear without a trait, I don´t understand!

hugs,
soleil

No problem! Whilst searching I also came across a site that has 1000deaths in the address, but it said that it was under construction and coming soon, so maybe if you keep searching every so often that site may be back up and running and you can find out if it is the one.

Good luck, ((((Yoursoleil)))) Please let us know when you find it!

I hope so!

whew, who would have known that depression really means suppressed feelings? I was going around empty like a robot. now meds are helping me to get my feelings back, but at the same time I´m getting back my memories of mom, and my pain. but this pain is good - it´s sadness, it´s a feeling, and it´s human. its so good to feel that again, and remember and miss my mom again. but now I need some way to deal with those feelings, and to do this a bit more effectively than previously...

sometimes it feels like there are so many feelings and memories coming back, that I´m just going nuts!


hugs,
soleil

This post has been edited by yoursoleil: Mar 24 2008, 02:50 PM

( ( ( ( yoursoleil ) ) ) )

That sounds very overwhelming, I really hope that your can find a suitable support group for your needs. It sounds like this one used to be helpful to you, fingers crossed that it is up and running again soon.

Take care, Florry

hmmm, I had a very fruitful session with therapist today and it appears I have PTSD!!!!! It should have been logical, taking into account my mothers suicide etc.. but still I´m quite suprised! I might write a longer topic about this. I just wanted to add this here, so it explains why my memories about mom keep popping into my head. I´m very happy about it though

hugs,
solei

(((((solei))))),

I'm so glad you're getting answers, and benefiting from therapy. Keep up the good work.

thanks Burgy!!

solei,

My husband completed suicide 5 yrs. ago. There is excellent material out there for you to read such as"No Time to Say Goodbye" , Surviving the Suicide of a Loved One, by Carla Fine. Also there is a non-profit group called the American Association of Suicidology. They have booklets they will send you and their address is 4201 Connecticut Ave., Suite 408, Washington, DC 20008. Phone # (202)237-2280. I too suffered from PTSD for about 2 years after the event. It does get better and so will you!
Best Regards to a fellow survivor,
"Sugardog"