I'm an old poster here from a year ago. I haven't posted in such a long time..

well, I don't know where to start. I tend to go through mood swings throughout the day where I feel fine--I'm optimistic I'm not stressing out over being single, and I think rational--then say a couple minutes later or thirty minutes later I'm down and depressed and I'm having thoughts that I'm never going to find anybody. I"m going to forever be single and no one is going to want me. This back and forth happens thorughout the day. but I notice I feel fine a lot longer when I am not at home. I still get depressed but just not as long

The mood swings happens a lot. Like everyday. When I am in a good mood, I often try to cherish that moment for as long as I can and I wonder how long it's going to last. I often worry that someone might say something to me, or I might hear or see something that will totally crush my spirits and send me back into that depressive mode.

There are certain websites that I refuse to visit because it will depress the heck out of me and make me angry, irritable and I'll start to cry. Mainly the ones where there are a large group of ppl in my age group who discuss their sex and dating lives. I never dated alot in high school, and now that I am 23 I still don't date a lot. So when I go on these forums and read all these people the same age as me who are dating, having sex etc doing things that I am not doing I get angry and feel very insecure and want to lash out on those people. There was one website I stopped posting at over a year ago because it made me so irritable and angry in my personal life. I felt miserable all the time. I kept thinking about how I was missing out on everything in life. When I stopped posting there I started to feel slightly better. It took awhile for me to be able to completely stop visiting this site because I was so addicted to it even though it made me feel bad.

Today, I visited that site out of curiousity and started lurking the threads, and I felt my depression creeping back up on me. The content I was reading made me feel irritable--the content was about sex. And the guys were talking about how they wouldn't want to be with a girl who couldn't orgasm from sex. And that they were glad they never had a chick with that problem. It made me feel so empty and angry inside to read that. Because I don't get any pleasure from sexual intercourse and I certainly can't orgasm from it. I felt very inferior and broken. Especially when some of the women posters talk about how they can orgasm and how great sex feels. Sometimes I get so angry that I want to kill myself or do something crazy. I immediately clicked out of that site and don't plan on visiting again

There are certain sites that talk about sex & relationships that I can bear, particularly the ones where women have similar issues to me. But if its a forum where all the women are in relationships or have no issues dating and have no sexual hangups it drives me up the wall. Seriously, I can end up depressed for days

Avoiding things helps but not totally. I'm just wondering if anyone thinks that this is bipolar? I keep thinking that my problem is because I don't enjoy sex, and not in a relationship (I've never been in love) and that once I find love and enjoy sex my life will be perfect. I truly feel this way.

Is this bipolar I am experiencing??

This post has been edited by Joya123: Feb 29 2008, 09:09 PM

24 views and not one reply. i'm looking for a little support here

None of us are doctors, and we honestly can't tell you if you're BP or not. One thing to keep in mind, if you only have these problems when thinking about your romantic life, then your problem is likely not BP. If these mood swings affect every aspect of your life, then BP may be the case. If you really want a diagnosis, you'll need to see a doc.

Sorry if this isn't really helpful, but it's the best I can do. I hope you find the answers you're looking for.

Cheers

Hi Joya

As Fishguy said, we are not professionals. The best thing would be for you to go to a doctor, as bipolar is incredibly hard to diagnose. It really does sound like you have a lot going on. Therapy may benefit you as well.

Trace

In order to be bipolar, your difficulties have to spread across multiple domains. (i.e. trouble at work, school, home, etc) Also, the disorder doesn't typically revolve around one stimulus, but you really need to sit down and have a one on one conversation with a mental health professional (psychologist, psychiatrist, MSW) to find out for certain. A mental health professional will ask you all of the questions necessary in order to make a diagnosis.

However, there is something called Hypoactive Sexual Desire Disorder. Now, I'm not trying to make a diagnosis, but you obviously have sexual concerns that you could potentially benefit from speaking to a MHP about.

Hypoactive Sexual Desire Disorder is exactly what it sounds like; certain people do not have any desire to engage in any sexual activity. Depression is a common side effect among people with this affliction. But, there is one huge caveat; it's difficult to tell whether low sexual activity is causing depression, or if depression is causing low sexual activity.

You can learn more about it on Wikipedia.

If this sounds anything like you, you may want to consider visiting a psychologist first. They can screen you for it (as well as any other disorders), make referrals, and offer treatment. The treatment for it is usually therapy. (Drugs aren't very effective for it)

Again, I am not a doctor. I'm just trying to help.

This post has been edited by Reborn: Mar 4 2008, 03:55 PM

I can't answer anything -- but wanted to make a comment.

People lie about their relationships & their sexual experience -- ESPECIALLY on the internet.
I bet a huge percentage of the people on that site are lying.

Many women can't orgasm from intercourse alone -- and there is nothing wrong with them.
Considering how male & female bodies are designed, i would bet that for a female to be able to orasm from just intercourse is the exception & not the norm.
Most require more direct stimulation in some way -- that's what the foreplay is all about.
And, they sell all kinds of "toys" that are designed to directly stimulate a woman during intercourse -- if it wasn't an issue, they wouldn't making those.

Sorry this is graphic, but I once heard that expecting a woman to climax from intercourse alone would be like asking a man to climax just by rubbing his testicles against a clitorus.

And -- for the guys that are saying every "chick" he was with orgasmed with sex everytime, either he's lying or she's faking.

Take those sites with a grain of salt and don't let them bother you.
It's probably best for many reasons other than your depression to just stay away from them anyway.

This post has been edited by slw: Mar 3 2008, 12:04 PM

Actually, I think it was around the time of Freud, but someone labeled women who are able to have an orgasm as disordered! Obviously, that belief didn't hold long, but it just goes to show that not every woman can have an orgasm from sex.

I was only diagnosed with depression for years until recently when I found a very good doctor who not only confirmed I was bipolar II (bipolar depression), but went into great detail about the difference from bipolar I and the different symptoms that can change over time. When you are younger, the symptoms tend to be less noticable and therefore diagnosed as depression alone - and treated as such. Which means you are not getting the treatment you need at a young age. Anway, as the others say, it is curious that your problems stem from only one area of concern. When I read it, I thought - hormones. Have you seen a doctor about your hormones lately?