I have now accepted it and its taken many years to do so.

I have been on and off them, sometimes coming off them in the right way and sometimes the wrong way.

But I decided now I am going to accept that I will have to take them for the rest of my days and once I stop focusing on them then I think I will be able to just put it to the background in my life and it just becomes something that take during the day. Well thats what I am hoping anyway.

I always seem to start taking them, then feel better then decide I am ok so then I stop, but this time I am sticking to them like glue so I can get better and go forward with my life.

Isabeau

We have talked about this before on DF.
I kicked ADs. two years ago and went thru HELL for it!
I am now doing great since going back on.
If thats what it takes for me to be happy, so be it!

And yes, I think I'll be on them for life.
And thats..................OK!

I came to terms with the fact that I would be on AD's for the rest of my life a few months ago. Really its not so bad... one little pill a day keeps me slipping back into the deep dark pit of depression! how easy is that?!

Ohh yes!!!...that question has crossed my mind several times now,...along with the other question; "Have you accepted the fact that you may never be healed totally from depression and may have to live with it for life????" now both questions really scares me. The answer to both of them is yes, I have given up and accepted my fate and just have to make up my mind and ....live with it,...deal with it!!!. I was once fooled with the concept that if I was to find wife#2 thus ending my sevear loneliness, then I would also be healed from depression, but I was wrong. Just reading about so much married couples who love eachother, but still suffer from and struggle with depression. I'm so disapointed, descouraged and confused with this fact.,...and to think all this time i thought finding "her" will end my sorrows. Well it will end my loneliness,..at least most of it,..but will it end my depression also???,...or do I live the rest of my life suffering from depression and living on anti-depressants???....i'll just have to wait and see won't i???...i had stopped taking my Effexor, but now i think i have to go back on it or something even stronger,...maybe for life,..my God!!, what a reality, what a wake up call,...what a life... :-(

Wayne.

Oh yeah. Like my dad said, "What prescription drug do you NOT take for life? Insulin, acid reflux meds, arthritis meds, athsma/allergy treatments, beta blockers, and the list goes on. After my first relapse, I knew I'd never want to go off again.

I AGREE 100% thankgoodness there are meds !!!

Yeah no problem. I don't mind taking a feel good or at least feel ok medicine. Look on the bright side of it. At least there is something to take, that can ameliorate the symptoms. There are many debilitating medical conditions for which there exist no cure or effective medication. So the patient is left in some sort of limbo, I guess until death approaches. While in limbo, of course, the patient continues to suffer.

On some levels, I guess depression is a tough form of growing up. One is compelled to take out one's demons from the closet or under the carpet and learn to come to terms with them. I think depression is mostly lifetime's collection of one's repressed emotions. After they have piled up for a while, they become debilitating.

i cant think of anything worse than the depression itself,clear?

i have thought about it and asked to be kept on my ap and ad for the rest of my life. i think its my life line.

how sad is that eh

I have never thought of this. Well, that's because I just took my very first AD pill 5 minutes ago.

But I agree with LookingUp. I just took this very first pill because I don't want to feel like I do. To be out of torment's claws by taking one pill a day? That's a small sacrifice in my opinion.

I say YES to all of the above. I've had too many relapses in the past when I tried to go off my meds. It scares me to death to think about what life will be without them. Does that mean I'm addicted to them? I'm not sure. At least it's a legal and good addiction, if that's so.

Barachus

So Wayne you think like i do really.....but is it sad, barebones? Isn't a good thing like others have said? One little pill and all is....well okay, and as Deet says, there are many drugs you take for life like asthma meds if you have asthma....

I do find this one hard though...I don't want to HAVE to take them for life, but does a diabetic want to HAVE to take insulin for life?

Ummm......I wonder if having mental health problems is part and parcel of this questioning medication.

Many famous bi-polar depressives, like Stephen Fry, would not choose to press a button and make his bipolarity disappear. I'm not bi-polar, i have clinical (major) depression and I would definately press that button, but is it a symptom of all depressives that you question, or try to go without before you finally accept the fact that you have to take this medication?

This post has been edited by hellnbak: Sep 20 2007, 01:16 PM

Yes, I have accepted that I will most likely be taking AD's forever. I'm ok with this, so long as they keep working!!

I'm also trying to help myself feel better in other ways, besides medication, by working on my attitude and behaviors. The ADs are a big part of the equation, but they're not all there is to it. I need to keep doing what I can to make the necessary changes in my behaviors too. Without the ADs, this would be impossible (even with them, it's hard enough!!)

In the meantime, I thank my lucky stars for my medication!

This post has been edited by Joanna: Sep 20 2007, 01:19 PM