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This post has been edited by suburgatory: Sep 15 2007, 11:52 PM

Hello. I guess I don't have it as bad as many people out there nore do I feel that I deserve any more attention then many other people who i am sure have it much worse hell i even know some people who's lives are way worse then mine but I guess depression is just a feeling you can't ignore and well I thought Id tell everyone what makes me depressed and why I sometimes wish that the next day would never come but despite thoughts like that I would have to say i could never actually harm myself as a means to escape life. Sure I grew up a normal family at first until my parents seperated. After that I moved alot. I never could have any real close friends that is until finally around 11th grade I had settled in with my mother. She is a great mom and she seems to want the best for me. Ive only ever had one girl friend and anyone who knows me doesn't really find me to be the best of social friends. I do keep to myself and words I speak go ignored quite often especially when there are other people around who always appear to have the ability to grab attention over me. One on One with anyone I seem to be able to communicate but I never feel the situation is right. I almost feel like a ghost that people only hear when there alone. I have no luck with finding a girlfriend obviously but I did have a 2year relationship from 16-18. I don't know exactly what went wrong from that point on in my life. We did separate and she got married and I had to be happy for her.. I did love her after all despite that I was not happy to see her leave never to be heard from again. I guess the depression rises up out of me after work when I'm home alone. I find no motivation to do much of anything and even the things like playing a game or watching tv seem to be dulling in value everyday. I feel life becomes more and more repeatitive. I have tried going out and sometimes I find a way to goto a bar with someone or to a co workers place just to hang but then I find myself listening barly talking about anything and when I finally do find something to say I am ignored most of the time since everyone seems to have so much to say compared to me. I have thought many times on what I want. I want to meet a girl have kids and grow old without being alone. I find this goal less realistic every time I see how I am around people. Sure everyone says they like me cause I am smart and I give off a very innocent/shy like charm. I don't want to be alone anymore. I hate it and after 8 years I am starting to think maybe I will end up alone. I just hate how this thought constantly everyday eats at me and I don't even hide it I tell anyone close to me how I feel but it does not appear to help since I always get the same advice. Hooker/Change yourself/etc... The problem I am having is that I want my destiny to reach me. I don't want to have to figure out a way to make what I want come true. Hell I know maybe it sounds selfish but that is how I want it to happen. For just one desire to make me feel so bad inside really sucks. I hate it because I feel less alive everyday. I have a hard time enjoying anything alone. Everything of value to me seems to continue to fade. A few more years like this and who knows..... I might be in really bad shape if I can't get a desire I have been hoping for for almost 8 years now. Well I decided Id write this to at least get it off my chest so I wouldn't continue to feel so bad since writing about it at least makes me feel slightly better even if only a little. I don't expect an answer to this problem. I need more of a miracle then an answer.

Thank you for reading,
-=Mark=-

Welcome to DF, LordFeff,
We have more than few members with relationship and social anxiety issue on the forum. You are not alone with your situation. Do not let yourself feel inadequate when it comes to finding and having a good relationship with a woman. There are many women out there to meet and one will be Miss Right.

For the moment, make some small achievable goals for yourself. When you accomplish one, give yourself a big pat on the back.

Have you thought about therapy? It can be helpful for social anxiety, depression and just about all MH issues.

Glad that you found DF. We are very supportive. We listen, give some advice based on our own experiences and will share those experiences with you.
Sheepwoman

Hi! I'm a student at a law school in the US. I've been seeing a psychiatrist and psychologist for about a year now and started on meds around 6 months ago. I'm mostly struggling with balancing schoolwork and this nasty disease. I've enjoyed reading all the friendly posts and I hope to get to know some of you!

to DF, sullylaw!

Wow, law school is enough pressure, without this pesky disease! Whew, good luck with that!

I'm glad you've enjoyed DF and became a member. We look forward to getting to know you too!

sullylaw

See you around on the boards.

Isabeau

Hi, I just joined up, I'm trying to learn more about depression from people who live with it so I will know how to help my husband. There are a lot of websites out there but most seem to come from a DR's view, hopefully this will help me earn what to do and avoid doing.

to DF, wishing423!

Thanks for joining. You'll learn a lot here about depression and anxiety. Maybe your husband could visit, too?

Since we are currently separated he does not have a computer (or really know how to use one, I always helped him with that) I wish he could. He has started going to therapy, but said it costs a lot and does not know if he could keep going. Would it be unethical or a bad idea for me to pay for a few visit's for him? I have thought about it, but it may make him feel strange, or worse make him feel like I am connected to something that is very private/personal and then he may not talk as much. I just posted a thread below. Thanks!

This post has been edited by wishing423: Aug 25 2007, 04:15 PM

Hello. Let's see. I guess I suffer from depression, it's always been hard to admit that though. I'm a type of person who will torture myself by think and just over-analyzing things, and suffering from insomnia, I have an abundance of time to think. I find it easier to talk to people online instead of face to face, even when it comes to talking to my parents, so I googled depression forums hoping to find a place where I can communicate with people who have experienced what I'm experiencing to perhaps fix my situation, which has a lot of good things going with me being the only thing in the way.

Hey everyone. I just registered here about five minutes ago. I am fifteen years old and I have been suffering from depression since age nine. I developed an anxiety disorder around five, and I believe my depression must have stemmed from that, at least partly. I consider myself a misanthropist, but I am generally not a cold person, just extremely antisocial and reserved. Well, I guess for now that's all I have to say. I look forward to posting more in the future!

Welcome Zaria, Wow thats a beautiful name! What is its origin? Glad you found us. You're gonna love this site.

Blue

Just a newbie not sure if I am posting right, found this site looking for info on Cymbalta withdraw. Boy, I do not know how they can get away selling a drug that is that addicting. Anyway I am still in withdraw and rather cranky and getting brain zapped every 30 seconds. Anyway I am a male. I know my avatar is a female but that is from my artwork. I am atypical bipolar which means I am more common... go figure. I also have some post traumatic stress which comes with being told you have lung cancer and have less than a year to live, after I started to deal with that new test came in showing 2nd tumor was not cancer so they could not operate which they did. Odds still not over 50% I will make it 5 yrs, but I am half way there. I was an abused child and attempted suicide once and was seriously considering it again. I hated my job and felt trapped as I could not leave due to money and health and life insurance issues. Discarded suicide plan and replaced it with the blow off a hand and foot plan to get disability. Job found out am now on psychiatrist disability, so everything worked out so far, except for the dam withdrawal

good luck, I went to law school for a year, but never found a happy balance. my grades were ok, but i was going into debt to pay for the school, and as i am sure you know any book with the word Law or Medical on it cost 5 times what a regular school book costs.

Hello All!
My name is Brittney and i am from texas. I have battled depression since i was about 15. Possibly longer.. i dunno. Thats when my mom first caught me cutting. Ive lived with the same depression since i can remember, stemming from my lack of self esteem. I hate myself and pretty much think im the ugliest person in the world. It started in highschool when i didnt get dates and was always th e "funny one" in the group. Yeah ouch. I decided to punish myself for being too ugly for dates by cutting. Stupid yes but it relived so much of my pain.. or so i thought.
I am now the divorced mother of a 4 year old and the depression is rearing its ugly head again. i hate seeing myself in the mirror.. i hate life in general. I feel i should be at a different point in life, not being broke and covered in stretch marks and zits.
I know i come off superficial... but im not. I just want to be happy and love myself like it seems everyone else does. The only way i know to escape the pain i feel inside is to inflict pain on the outside. Since i cant cut myself and get away with it.. i dont know what to do. i havent eaten all day and have no intentions of doing so.
I cant keep this up, its unfair to my son.
Im looking for friends and guidance of people who are/have been in the same boat as me.

Thanks for reading my junk.