Howdy ADDers :wave:
So, how many of us have real problems at work? I know I do. My job primarily consists of data entry and filing paperwork. That's not what my job description says, but that's ultimately what I end up doing.
I have piles and piles of paperwork, not in any specific order, just stacks and paperwork everywhere. My cube looks rather similar to how my room looked while I was growing up (only substitute toys and clothes for paper and office supplies).
This is a real problem. In some areas, I am
months behind! If my boss asks me for something, it's usually not too big of a problem as long as he gives me advanced notice. I can hyperfocus with the best of them, and I can usually pump out whatever is asked of me, in a couple days.
However, I have a real problem getting things done otherwise. I was sitting here in my cube, trying to get my daily tasks complete, when I found myself staring out the window at the beautiful view of the mountains I have. I tried to "re-focus" and made another attempt at it... same result. I then ended up here, where I've been attempting to write this post.
It seems the more I try to do, the more frustrated I get. My anxiety builds and builds, and I end up not doing much of anything, unless I
have to. In many cases, my boss would ask me for something from several weeks ago... I end up giving him the ol' "deer in the headlights" gaze. As if to say, "I have no idea what you're talking about". I forget things ALL the time. I have a view or an image in my head of everything I need to get done. There's no order to it whatsoever. It's just racing images, that blend right in with whatever else I'm day-dreaming about. I end up frustrated, full of anxiety and disappointment, and get little to nothing done everyday.
I need to find a job that fits with me, not the other way around. I've come to the conclusion that sitting in a cube doing office work all day is not for me. Not just because it's not my ideal job, but because I quite literally cannot do this anymore. It's a drain on me physically, and especially mentally.
In any case, I'm wondering if any of you ADDers have trouble in the workplace. How do you deal with it?
Sorry for the long post!