I've been on Lexapro for 3 weeks now and I can say that it is helping. I'm much more stable and the negative thoughts and unmotivatedness(is that a word? lol) are getting better. I also have my first counseling session this afternoon. But one thing that trips me up is every morning when I take that pill. It's like I'm reminded about my "illness". I almost wish I could take it without knowing I'm taking it. Know what I mean? I'm reminded that I need this pill to make me happy and that bothers me.

I think it bothers most of us as we're trying to tell ourselves that we're not 'sick' then we're taking a pill..... I guess that idea goes away as most of us keep taking meds and don't equate it with being sick after awhile. At least I don't. I think we hear such negative press about pills that we forget we have a medical condition that can be treated. A little different than abuse, don't you think?

Jackie

I dislike taking pills, but if they help me, I'll continue to take them. They are a reminder that I have a mental illness (mine is for life), however, there are a lot of people that do not have to take a pill forever. It's difficult as it is to have a mental illness as there is so much stigma attached. I've learned to live with mine (and it has been dificult to treat).

How did your counseling appointment go?
Sheepwoman

Getting the prescription was the hard part for me. Once I got over that hurdle, taking the medication was not an issue for me.

KA

ooo I definately have a love hate relationship with my medications. I am really bad about taking them once I start feeling better too. I have several people lined up who ask me daily if I took them hehehe. It helps.

I have to remind myself that to not take them means I may go back "there" again and I really do not want to do that.

Take care
Brenda

well said.

I am obsessive about taking my meds. I take ALOT of pills (20+ a day)but i know the consequences of NOT taking them and they arent good. I hate being on meds like I am, like many of you it reminds me I will be doing this every day for the rest of my life, several times a day. It becomes depressing at times. Go figure, taking medication for depression among other things can cause depression too. Many if not all of us will be on some type of medication for our illnesses. Some of us will get past the need for meds. All I know is I hate taking the meds, but i hate the reaction if I DONT even more, and its harder to get back on them everytime I stop because I "feel" better.

I find that having to take the meds sometimes will get me stuck in one of my anxiety attacks or depression bouts. It's like a constant reminder that I'm not normal. I'm not like other people. I have to take a pill to try to be what everyone else just is. It makes me feel awful about myself sometimes. It's all dependent on how I'm feeling though. If I'm in an okay mood, the pills don't bother me in the slightest. Once I start slipping, though, I get hung up on knowing I'm not right.