My doc wants me to do there outpatient program, but I have anxiety, wich makes it unbearable to be in social situatiions, I asked the doc if I could wait until my meds started working so maybe I was lesss anxious, and she finally agreed but then she told the outpatient department I was starting this week, I have called the doc about my meds fro several days and have not got a return call, I feel like this is because I didn't start the outpatient program, I have a scheduled appointment sat, and hope they don't drop me for this reason.

by the way I tried a different outpatient treatment several weeks ago (when I wasn't on meds)but was so anxoius and sick I had to leave.


Will

will, i had S.A for a long long time. its aweful isnt it? im still not rid of it, but there is hope, hang in there, i never i thought i would get to where i am now.
My "panacea" for my depression and S.A was that i realised im a beautiful person and deserving of laughter, affection and companionship. I had experienced- as so many people do- my life as a chain of negative events, and i never felt any compassion for myself.
I now do. I realise i am as much a person as the next person.
You just remain optimistic, be postive that you will overcome, and S.A will at the end make you a very sincere and understanding person in human relations.
I saw the light. I never dreamed I would. I am seeing it everyday, and it is something that you can never take for granted, because believe it or not, most people have to make a tremendous effort to socialise, and social transactions are often complicated and intricate, people have to develop socialising(like any other activity), it is a skill, and most people are constantly thinking about these transactions with people, how we present ourselves etc etc.
one thing that helped a lot, was to realise that every single person is very preoccuppied with their own thoughts and lives. When you walk in a mall, you are not being sussed out, not at all. every other person has a mind filled with thoughts, they are not thinking about you. They are sensitive and love seeking people. they have sick loved ones, may be ill themselves, are having relationship problems, financial difficulties, mental and emotional problems. My point is they are all beautiful people trying to get on with their lives, which are rarely if ever easy. They are you and you are them. We are have to appreciate that, and not be afraid of hurt and rejection. We are all seeking acceptance, it is hard work, but we all are in it together.

I have a tendency to answer questions in a strange way, i guess it is a matter of sharing my perspective.

I hope you find it at least a bit encouraging or helpful.

And Will. If you dont by a ticket you cant win the lottery.

New things are challenging, go for it, try and challenge yourself, and always know in the back of your mind, that victory is possible and within your reach. sometimes you just have to stick your arm out, and feel around for a bit, eventually you will find what it is you are looking for.

i would try to go to the out patient therapy. it would "force" you to make urselh handle the situation. dont give up on urself

I cannot stress how great outpatient programs are. At first i had to pretty muich be dragged to the outpatient program because im not good in social situtations either but after being there for a day, you will feel right at home because you are able to see many people with the same problems or worse.After the first day, I couldnt wait to go back the next day. My outpatient program was group therapy, group music therapy, dual(the group becomes separated for the people having drug addiction problems), deep breathing/meditation exercises, open discussion about life and problems(i enjoyed this one the best) a class on various disorders and how to help yourself with those disorders. My outpatient program had all of these in one day. The day is broken down into time limits, and sections and inbetween you can go outside for a walk for a few minutes inbetween the next section or talk with the other people about the last sesion you had.

I want you to understand, I HAVE VERY BAD SOCIAL ANXIETY, so if i can many to pull myself through the first day surely so can you. I would recommend it alot because it is not like the hospital, ior individual therapy. Everybody in the program doesnt criticise anything you say, everybody is very suportive and you will even be surprised at how many people can relate to what you can say. Sometimes people wil openly start crying because they are so happy to get the stress off the chest and talk to somebody to relate to.

They also give you a menu at the beginning of the day so you get lunch for free.

I really hope that you consider it, it has helped me alot.


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